Autumn is upon us…
Well, apparently, Missouri is a little late in getting the memo. The temps have remained consistent with summer. It is supposed to cool back down tomorrow, though, and become more “autumny”. (Thank all that is good!)
Over the years, Autumn has become a time of great reflection and transformation for me, and this year is certainly no different.
I have known since the beginning that 2017 is a ‘1 year’. A year of beginnings. It has not reflected that energy to me. That is, until recently.
Guess it’s a late-blooming energy in my life. Or maybe I’m just the late bloomer. lol Either way, it is beginning to “kick in”. But will wait until late December to fully materialize.
As mentioned previously, my family is facing a transition, in the form of a move. This has been requiring us to go through and “purge” those things that no longer serve us. And, let me tell you, there has been A LOT of it! I’ve lost track of the number of trips we’ve made to the local charity thrift store to make donations.
But, I have realized that the “purging” doesn’t end there.
I am undergoing something of a “reboot” of self, both physically and mentally.
To be honest, I’m not entirely certain how it’s all going to play out.
Physically, I’m beginning to feel better than I have in quite a long time. But even that change isn’t merely physical. I’m beginning to feel better about me. More motivated and optimistic, and in a way I’ve not felt in years, if not decades.
See, Dh and I have embarked on a ketogenic way of eating. Granted, it’s only been 2 weeks now, but I’m feeling GOOD, if not still a little tired physically. I’m noticing changes in my weight and my body as well as a desire to move my body.
I’ve finally found a form of exercise that I enjoy, that I can easily convince my mind that “we’re having FUN!”.
Ballet.
It took me some time to get beyond the insecurities. Truth be told, they still come up at times. (ie visions of the dancing hippos in Disney’s Fantasia) BUT, I’m not allowing them to deter me, and I’m having a great time with it! Not only at class each week, but in the videos that I work with throughout the week to strengthen my body.
Will I ever be a prima ballerina?
No. I probably won’t ever make my way to being en pointe, but I’m enjoying the heck out of it! And am very much looking forward to being a part of the studio’s production of The Nutcracker in December.
Reflection upon mySelf, purging of the thoughts and programming that no longer serve me, and transformation into who I AM authentically… That is what this autumn is all about. Now, more than ever.
This post was originally published on Writing the Wild Wind.