I had an awesome weekend planned this weekend.
Friday night, I would enjoy the first fire of Autumn out back with DH.
Saturday, I would enjoy the mild temps with one of my besties. Bike ride, lunch, and a bit of retail therapy.
Sunday, lunch out with the fam to celebrate my son’s 29th (!!!) birthday.
Only a few of those things came to pass, though, because yesterday, my body warned me that I was quickly approaching “imbalance”. (This is where it takes me into a vertigo situation, and when it’s really bad, I end up going to Urgent Care where I get a shot in the butt and sleep the next couple of days away.)
Did I heed its warning?
No, I decided that I had too many fun things planned to be bothered and proceeded to get to them! By late day, the world spun every time I bent over, and by the time I got settled at home, the nausea and vomiting started. (Lovely!)
If I’m honest with myself, I’ve been going hard at the activities since Spring.
- Universal Studios with my youngest kiddo in April.
- June saw us taking the travel trailer out for a long road trip to see my eldest daughter and her family.
- A few weeks ago, I took a trip out to Phoenix to see one of my dear, long-time friends, so we could let out our Inner Teens to see Duran Duran in concert.
Add to this an increased amount of time spent with family and friends, and it equals a real blow-out for the Highly Sensitive, Introverted senses (ie imbalance).
To be honest, I thought I was doing pretty well balancing all of it. My body, apparently, says otherwise.
Even in the midst of the imbalance last night, my Inner Kiddo groused. In fact, I will admit that quite a few “color metaphors” could be heard coming from the bathroom, in between bouts of vomiting. Even then, I was fighting (ie resisting) what was.
“What you resist, persists.”Carl Jung
At some point, I finally remembered that the situation was not going to get any better by fighting it, so I surrendered in the form of sleeping. (After all, the world was spinning, which made it impossible to even watch television. Why not?) And I slept all the way through the night…
This morning, I was doing much better. Granted, I still wasn’t firm in my stance, but, at least, the spin wasn’t as bad.
So, what did I decide to do?
Well, at one point, I was heard to say, “I’m going!” I wasn’t going to miss my son’s birthday lunch. (Stubborn to a fault!) That was until I remembered back to yesterday. I was feeling the same way today as I felt yesterday morning, and look what charging through it got me!
As much as I hated to do it, I texted everyone to let them know we wouldn’t be able to make it today. Instead, my day is being spent stretched out on the bed, reading, writing, and probably sleeping.
The Autumn Equinox is all about balance, and, at times, it will show us exactly what is out of balance in our lives and demand we right it. Such has been the case for me…
This has always been a time of the year when I’ve been called inward, to release my grip on “doing” and embrace “being”. Some years, it seems, are more challenging to make this shift than others.
What in your life is seeking balance at this time, my dear friend?
Until next time, take care and may you be well!